Understand What I've Become...

Sat, 04 Nov 2006 03:12:21 GMT

Time for an update I thinks.

OK. I am settled into the house in Edinburgh now. Couldn't be more content with the situation, the others rock and I'm never bored with them around. I've just set up the internet at home, finally, so I'll be around a lot more from now on. I miss everyone here.

The Boy Kill Boy gig was absofuckinglutely excellent. I managed to get to the very front, very middle, and was standing in front of the singer all night. It couldn't have worked out any better than it did. The pictures I got were amazing.

Tomorrow ((well, today, technically, as it's 3am)) I am going HOME for a few days. Just until Monday. And am going to see Muse tomorrow ((Saturday)) night. Cannot wait for that. I'm going home! I have to leave for the airport in about an hour, which is why I'm awake and online.

I have an essay, my first of the year, due on Wednesday, for Child Development. It's difficult and exhausting and I'm minorly stressing. But I'm bringing my laptop and notes home with me so I should get my ass into gear and do some work if I get any time. Let's hope so.

Time to get some packing done.

Fri, 23 Jun 2006 14:55:54 GMT

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Christine!

Christine is actually a fruit, not a vegetable!
There is actually no danger in swimming right after you eat Christine, though it may feel uncomfortable!
There are more than two hundred different kinds of Christine!
It takes forty minutes to hard-boil Christine.
Christine is the only metal that is liquid at room temperature.
The water in oceans is four times less salty than the water in Christine.
Banging your head against Christine uses 150 calories an hour.
A thimbleful of Christine would weigh over 100 million tons.
Cats use their Christine to test whether a space is large enough for them to fit through!
In Japan it is considered rude to talk with Christine in your mouth.

OK, more seriously now:
I passed my first year of university with three passes and five merits.
I had an interview today for a proper 9-5 (actually 8:30am-430pm, how will I survive?).
That's about all I have.

Wed, 07 Jun 2006 01:30:01 GMT

I have notes scribbled on a page somewhere with a makeshift pen.
I want to finish the half-made points and metaphors and images.
I want to be able to write down my ideas.
My shoulders hurt from stress and the amount I pop the joints when I'm nervous.
My summer has officially started.
I want to go back.
I want to be drunk and free and alive.
I want to live on my own next year.
I'm considering renting somewhere alone next summer.
I felt like myself for the first time on Friday.
It's made me hate who I pretend to be when I'm here.
I have to unpack.
I hope I've passed with merit all my exams.
First year of university is over.
My bank account is suitably overdrawn to prove that.
I have to find a job.

I might be back to LJ for good.
I'm still deciding.
((I still read everyone))

Tue, 06 Sep 2005 19:54:37 GMT

Next week, on Thursday, all being well, I'm going to be leaving to live in Edinburgh. I've been accepted into Napier University for social sciences, and although it's not what I had intended to do, I'm content. I'll most likely not be back here after then, so anyone who wants to stay in touch, email me ((surr_fant@hotmail.com)) before next week with your address and I'll write.

Thu, 06 Jan 2005 20:43:16 GMT

-stolen-
1. set your playlist to random and play.
2. write down your favorite lyrics from the first 25 songs that play.
3. force everyone to guess what songs they are from.
4. cross out the songs that have been guessed correctly.

1. Lucy's in the sky again,
trippin' on her diamonds.

2. Shrink wrap your kiss in plastic love,
Make my mind up when you return,
I don't know what's happened to me these days,
But it feels like love in the strangest ways.

3. Cannot express, to the point I've regressed -
If anger's a gift then I guess I've been blessed.

4. She's just like a maze,
Where all of the walls all continually change.
And I've done all I can,
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hands.

5. Some say we'll see armageddon soon,
I certainly hope we will;
I sure could use a vacation from this
Bull-shit, three-ring circus sideshow
Of freaks.

6. Evil monster, show me the things I never wanted done.
Evil monster, do to me the things I never wanted done.

7. A darkness grows inside me
in fading shades of grey.
All the colours in the world
are slowly sucked away.

8. She's beautiful as usual
With bruises on her ego.

9. Aren't you such a catch?
What a prize,
got a body like a battleaxe.
Love that perfect frown,
honest eyes.

10. Wears make-up to hide the scars,
Got bruises up and down her arms,
and the coward's name tattooed on her wrist.

11. That night she said, "I will be true,"
Meant every word she said to you.

12. Do the same old demons haunt just me?

13. "I love you" is all she heard..
I'll wait for you, but I can't wait forever.

14. I am the walking dead heartbreaker,
My apologies.

15. There's blood underneath that skin,
That scar's not so easy to erase.

16. Reminded me twice that I was alive,
And it reminded me that you're still worth the fight.

17. Did I run outside to kiss the rain under electrical skies?

18. ~~I don't understand why I'm fumbling after..~~

19. It's a mad-house, this modern life,
It's a mad-house, my faithless wife.

20. You're passing needles through me,
my bloody referee. (( don't get this one, and I'll be disappointed ))

21. ~~I'll take your invitation, you take all of me.~~

22. ~~And I saw my reflection in the snow-covered hills.~~

23. Why didn't I know what I know now?

24. ~~I, myself, could use a little clarity.~~

25. ~~Nothing isn't nothing, nothing's something that's important to me.~~

Sat, 04 Dec 2004 23:27:03 GMT

Comment, I'll add you back.
Within reason.
=)
xox